What happened?

I know life is never unfair.I don't need you to remind me about that.I just want a place to release it and so that I can let it be.If you do not want to listen,don't never ever bother to ask.I dont need you telling how naive I am.I will let it be but not for now.Don't try to think you are cute by giving me the blank look or with lol and hahaaha.I'm having a bad day today.If you are not helping,go away.I don't need u either.

The reason which I lost my temper today is because of the irresponsible helpers at the marathon today.They didn't record numbers of some of us and started to accuse us for running with the guys at the first place.What??Excuse me!I ran with the girls and not the guys at the first place.Secondly,we managed to overtake the guys and they started 5-10 minutes earlier



Not a single apologies from them.They just asked us to stand aside without explaining to us.We were asking politely.'Pak cik,kenapa?' or 'miss,what happened?'NOne of them replied us.It is better to talk with the walls at least there is some echo.After the 30th place,only they let us go in.



Of course I was angry and frustrated.I pushed myself to the extend already.God knows how I finished the 9km run.Dragging,focing and motivating myself to run le.Better spend time at home to finish my homeworks la.



*this happened 2 weeks before.Bad things start happen after that.One of my friend has lost
something valuable to her.Another has lost someone dearest to her.I had lost something too.
I don't want to make a big fuss about it and I just want my stuff back.Forgive me if I didn't tell.
I don't know how to start and how to explain.One of the reason is I could not accept other's
reactions when they heard about marathon.They said I am naive and life is unfair.An apology
from you may make our friendship back to usual.But I had lost my faith in you and will not tell
you how I am feeling inside anymore.

This is my life and I will know how to handle.Hope all the bad things will end by now.It is hard to
take it anymore.

I need a break

Just because I did not tell you guys how much I dislike when you guys tease me face to face,it does not mean that I am fine with it.You may think it is funny,but my life is not ur joke.I might find it funny sometimes.only sometimes.

I dislike to see you face to face,not because I hate you or what,Just because i have to play tug-of-war with my innerself everytime I got home.It is not fun at all.Sometimes if the past won the game,it is very suffering.It is true that I had moved on with my own life.But sorry,I can't turn away in a sec and pretend like nothing happen before.The scar is still there and it is not fully healed yet.

The reason I make the first move is because I cherish our friendships.I believe that we are matured enough.Not because that I am desperate or whatever.If you think so,you are seriously wrong.I do find it awkward but what is the matter now?We only have one life.Who knows what might happen tomorow?I live by the motto 'Carpe Diem'..I guess this explains why I spoke to you that day.

I cannot deny that in my heart,there is always a place for you.and there is no expiry date for that.Just because we are just friends now,it does not mean that I will stop care for you and so on..You were someone special before and you will still be someone special but in a different way.

If you are reading this and you consider yourself as my friend,please stop saying all the nonsense between me and him anymore.It might be fun to see both of us speechless but remember,what goes around comes around.

I need a break.

5 things I hate about periods

1.You will feel darn uncomfortable.

2.It is super unconvenient.

3.You will feel moody or moodless.

4.You will feel tired,pain,numb and etc..

5.You will have to battle with your inner mood swings.There's a high
possiblity to swing away your relationships with your loved ones and
friends.

*Don't believe?Try being a girl a day!=D
*p.s./Try to make a girl angry during those special days if you like some
'challenges'!

Tests

It is me!!!lol..It has been a while since my last update..I had my exam last week.It was terrible,horrible end vegetable.I am not exaggerating.I thought it was a gone case cause it is just the first test!I felt I am dumb when I received my test papers.

Till Mr.Kwan came in,he talked to us about exams.He believe in exams as they are an evaluation of knowledges and understanding.I thought being in form 6,means that I have to study extra hard and be more hardworking.But it is proven that it does not help much if I dont know the technique of applying.

He told us that when he was in f6,he studied really hard for his physics paper yet he failed.He thought he was really 'bodoh'..We were laughing when he said that.Because the way he described is so cute.He told us it is because he does not the technique of applying at that time.He wants us not only to study hard,but to do more exercises.It will be struggling at the first place.But as we struggle,we are also learning.

I find that this is a kind of inspiration by f6 teachers.All of them are quite nice so far.And yes,I feel happy now.=)

cheer me up,will you?xD

Why I have to learn things in a more difficult way this week?Firstly,I almost burnt Siva..He was helping me to light up the old-fashioned bunsen burner.It was so so so scary.Luckily,his response is fast enough and at the same time,I was fast enough to off the gas.Phew..Luckily,there is only a few hairs on his hand is burnt.I am really really guilty..Told ya I cannot work in lab.sad case..lol

I fell down..yes..If you are going to laugh,go ahead.lol..I know it sounds so lame to hear a soon-to-be-18 fell down.But believe me,it was really really an accident!xD

I was searching for a ribbon in my drawer this afternoon.As i was searching,i saw the big blue box you gave me.It brings back alot of memories.It just seems so hard to let go completely.I am seriously not good in bidding farewell and handling relationships.I am having a ___period with my friend.I do not know how to describe this.But it is sad.I know you did your best.I dont want to hurt you with my words.But I can't help it.I am sorry.

There are too many things running in my mind now.Stressed out?Nah..nope..At least not so fast.I am a tough girl!haha..But there is too much to handle for this week.I can't stand anymoreeee..Will you please cheer me up??=p

mixed feelings

Congrats to the defending champion team!lol..I am so so so proud of you guys.We almost had heart attack this evening..I agree with what Pn.ong said.To be a champion is easy,but to maintain it,it is way more difficult than winning it.All the best to the IHL and marching team!

This has been another hectic week.I did not get to rest properly due to too many 'activities'..haha..The bbq with all the ACSians is awesome!i met the shortie shaun and sexy kim there=p..It has been ages since I last saw him.Let me recall,was it the spm bio test?lol..

I am really disappointed/tired.I did try my best to talk to you.Apparently,you think that it is a waste of time to talk to me or what?I am giving up now.honestly.Sorry for unable to be your 'in' friend.Those who can keep you bubbly and happy rather than being emo when you are with me.If you feel it is better to ignore me or whatsoever,it is okay.Just walk away.It will be fine.I am not going to tell you that I will be here when you need me anymore.It does not mean anything to you and me from nowonwards.

I learnt something about clubbing today.It is not just about dancing and drinking anymore,it is about xoxo too..but in a cheap way.
*I thought you are different,but ended up you are just the same as others.

Here in my class

This the happiest week in KGV so far!It started with an orientation cum competition among classes of 6R.I still can recall the first day in class.It was so so so quiet.Everyone was doing their own work.There is no common topic among classmates.I didn't even know most of their names and didn't even talk to some of them till we have to come up with a performance.


Then we started to discuss,sing.laugh and dance together.After all the discussions,we finally decided to do a sketch and choir. It wasn't easy to synchronize everything from the singing till the movements.But the process is fun and this is the time we get to know each other better.

It is all worth it when we got the 1st place!!Every Iskandarians was jumping and cheering around.This reminds me about Setians.The semangat class..xD

My dream of becoming a chemist or working in a laboratory has officially vanished.I do not know how to use a new pipette sucker.(It is only because we were using the old one last week.=p)I tried so hard to compress the air out,squeezed the sucker with all my strength..(memalukannya)My lab partner.methyl mandy and I decided not to work in the laboratory in the future.We will get all inaccurate results.lol..I accidentally stained mandy's shirt with methyl orange.(so much for not wearing a lab coat la) Sorry girl..xD