shitty feeling

I hate myself

-for not being tough enough.
-for not being independent enough
-for not being mature enough
-for taking things for granted
-cannot let things fo easily
-for not revealing my true opinions
-afraid of hurting others,bt ended up hurting myself
-for being soft-hearted
-for following my heart instead of thinking with my brain
-for not being rational enough
-for taking things too seriously.should I just take things easily?
-for 'mm seh tak' everything in my life.not brave enough to walk out of
my comfort zone
-for feeling shitty right now.