this is how im feeling inside

I'm back =D

2010-05-22T18:12:00.002+08:00

I'm back with a new meee~
gonna change my link ady..stay tuned! esp timk =p

numb

2009-11-25T12:35:00.002+08:00

I survived 3 days of morning papers.and it really sucks,I totally hate it when I relate it to my future.3 hours of papers =my future?Life is not about exams,academics and how many A's.But I really felt so depressing and disappointed..I wish I have 8 GB memory.I looked at the questions..this is what I have studied,this one I can do.but ended up nothing like that.Seriously,the disappointment in urself is worst than the disappointments u felt in others.cause it's always so easy and forget.
I barely knew how to live.All I can do is rely on prayers.really..keep telling myself to keep holding on..have faith,keep believing in myself..but it's nver easy.never come to an edge of breaking down like this.and now I know how it felt.
A big thank you for all the wishes and prayers.It meant alot.
esp nana's "I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me'
and bumbum
and sis..I was thinking abt wht kind of results I will get after tuition.I asked sis do i have alternative?sis told me tht u never even try then u are making conclusion.I really appreciate that.thats wht keeps me going until now.really need to take a break and recharge!
have faith and keep holding on!

roller-coaster

2009-06-06T18:16:00.003+08:00

Too many things happened in this week.No break for my mental and physical health.Now,I'm down with itchy throat!mengada betul..Are you easily affected by people around you?If they are happy,you will be as bubbly and happy as them.But when they are sad,you can't help but eventually you will feel sad also?Honestly,I am that kind of person.I can't use any word to describe this kind of feeling other than roller-coaster.It's like one moment you are going to touch the sky!*doom*Now,you are slipping down.
I wanna search the 'old' me.The super optimistic one.The one always smile from the bottom of her heart.The one who always how to forgive and forget.The one who doesn't bother how people judge her.The one who wants to be happy 24/7.The one who can takes jokes well.The one who wants her loved ones to be happy all the time.
I don't know how long this mission is going to takes me.But I hope as soon as possible because I can't bear it anymore.If next time someone is angry yet I can still laugh like usual,it is not that I don't care how you feel,I do care,but I need a life.

糟透了!

2009-06-03T17:08:00.003+08:00

难受的感觉真的糟透了!真的很难受!这几天都为了这个而烦.有朋友也烦,没有也烦.考试也考的不好,心情起伏很大.做朋友要这样吗?对不起,我不能把发生了的事当做没有事.难道一句道歉这么难说吗?我做错事,我一定会说的.可能越在乎的东西,越难放手吧.真的很难叻.不过我会学着放手的.毕竟它不是我的东西.我以为好朋友是一辈子的.为什么会有限期的呢?

amazing scenery!

2009-05-30T21:06:00.002+08:00

This is so beautiful!!and it took us more than 2 hours or 3 to reach the top!
a part of my sweet memories =)

*One day,I'll be going there again =>

A loud sighh

2009-04-03T20:42:00.002+08:00

This is a what I am feeling right nowww.I dont know how to explain this feeling but its like my heart is aching.I really heart you guys but why is it everybody is doing the same thing?This one tak tahu..(darn) and others said last min and so on.........I just got home at around 5pm and Mandy and I were trying our best ady.What more you guys want?Who are we suppose to depend then?I really feel like dont bother anymore...Sigh.......don't know what to say anymore..I thought growing up will not affect our relationships till now.What is everything different now?Can someone please tell me?

So yesterday

2009-03-16T18:41:00.007+08:00

I know my blog is so yesterday!!still talking about CNY.Anyway,there is no much updates in my life.Everything is as usual just that I had tests recently.Apparently,I'm not good enough.So,got to work way harder for STPM.

Time really flies!It's march now.Soon,it will be novemeber and there is when I have to make a decision and really think about what I wanan do,But before that,I got to work really really hard to achieve what I have yearned for.

I have been going out since friday.Gosh,what a 'right' way to start my hols.But it felt really nice to ignore all the assignments and just chill with friends.By thw way,I went to Lim Kok Wing today.It was kinda fun when we were in the bus!making tonnes of noise by singing out of tune and so on.Thank god the driver just ignored us without telling us to shut up.

Some pretty bottles designed by the students there.

I like this!

Random scene

In putrajaya

The place which we visited during f3!

Blue blue skies!pure bliss =)

*I am going to finish this this hols!!!I wont take 1 year unlike someone =p!

It's a mixed feelings actually.It is unbearable because I can't stand the pain and I can't make it go away.I just dont know what you want and I really dont know what i want from you.I can't let things be like normal cause things are hanging there and it doesn't get me anywhere.The truth is I'm really confused whether to believe what I've heard and seen or just simply believe you and hoping that you are true to yourself?Tell me what should I do,will you?

CNY mode!!

2009-01-24T12:49:00.002+08:00

Finally,it is Chinese New Year!!I am so excited cause I have been waiting CNY for monthssss!can't even concentrate in class and do my hw!(okay,i admit this is an lame excuse!)lol..I am going back to Sitiawan,Perak(mom's hometown) today after tuition.The best thing is I haven't finish packing and tuition starts at 3!how great it is!have to pack my homeworks and assignments along cause I'm going kulai,Johor after Perak.Can't wait for CNY as I can spend time with both paternal and maternal sides of relatives.

On the other side,I have alot of stuff to do!
Tell me how to eat reunion dinner peacefully with chemistry assignments,maths past year questions,revision questions,4 pa graphs,4 pa karangan!!

-But trust me,I will not let them bring my CNY spirit down as I will postpone them..xD-

Happy CNY people!!!Can't wait for 'chu wu''~Love all the way from perak!!

5/1/08

2009-01-04T20:19:00.000+08:00

school reopens tomorrow!!depressed betull....sighhhh

My 18th~~

2008-12-27T18:05:00.000+08:00

I am finally LEGAL!Can you hear that??I bet you can't..Nevermind..I'll repeat myself!!
*drum rolls*
I'm finally legal.Okay.Well,being 18th means I can watch 18sx movies,clubbing and so on(okay..I am not going ot do that..really~)being 18 means...(well,you dont expect me to know right?I'm just a newbie)

Being 18 means I can officially have fun with my friends and family on that day!

Words can't describe how I felt..so I'll show you guys the pics..

It started off well with Maths tuition at 9 am!!Of course I'm not gonna blog about matrix and so on..no worries..

Dear M&M blindfolded me to a cosy place!I was kinda freaked out cause I don't know

what's going to happen there.It turned out to be...

Shirley Temple

Maine's lunch

Mine!

Mandy's

Our pictures!!oh no..

I mean this..

Sexy Maine

Cheeky Mandy

I'm wishing for =D

Thank you,M&M..I'm starting to love surprises!I am going to blindfold you two as well as
handcuff during your birthday..Muahahaha..

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Mc asked me out for a dinner and told me that it will
only be two of us..Of course I don't mind although I suspected something during tuition..I'm getting smarter ady!lol

Went to jusco to meet her and maine.Instead of meeting mc,I found ah ying,ah ni,ah fu,amelia,anna and azlin in front of mph.The 'Gu' gang apparently just finished watching movie while Anna and Azlin went out together despite they are having exam.

Well,afterall Seremban is small right?So it's kinda normal to bump into everyone there.

Maine had to leave earlier so we went to play sand art!Actually kinda forget about the time and mc ady!lol..

Halfway through,mc called and asked me to lead myself to the information counter.A mini 'amazing race' for me??!!Gosh,my friends are getting more creative day by day!

I read the note and what???lead myself to where??oh dear!!

Okay.I am gonna skip this part because basically you all can guess where I went for the following pics.

With the girls..Look at hau!!This is the proof!!

Sand art by nana.dino and I!nice right?lol

I screwed up this!!Didn't really paid attention on the little creature there..Guess what is that?

My birthday cake!!Love them too~

*Honestly,it was a memorable birthday with you peeps..I really had lots of fun.No doubt it is a creative one!The path to kenny rogers jusco will never be the same anymore..=p

Thanks everyone for your wishes although you guys were on finals or jobs.Thanks for those who turned up for the dinner too~It really made my day!!*heartsss

Great procrastinator I am!

2008-11-28T20:52:00.001+08:00

I am really gonna update this..I am gonna really update this..Okay..this is what I have been telling myself to do..I am really busy la..busy of studying?nah..Do i look like I am that hardworking..How I wish I am!But I am a great procrastinator..Tomorrow I will do it..okay..maybe the day after tomorrow..No no~next week is the best..I will be proud of myself if I am going to do my abandoned works after this.

Anyways,of course I will have a list to motivate what I wanna achieve during this hols.
1.study!!(lol..I failed to do this but I will not give up!)
2.catch up with friends esp dino the animal and banana the fruit..I miss you guys heaps..
3.exercise and win jim in 5 years time!lol..
4.~~watch all the dramas that I missed out~~
5.go back jb
6.finish all my abandoned works..esp.maths..lol..

So far,these things are on my mind.I really do hope I achieve this 'End of the year' resolutions of mine..hehe..=)

phew!

2008-11-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

It has been a long long time since I last updated this blog.hehe..It is just because I have no inspirations and ideas.(as well as a lil of laziness in me)Well,nothing really happened throughout these few weeks apart from my finals and muet test which I had today.It was totally disastrous.Urgh..don't wanna think about it.I will just treat it as a trial test =)

Well,I can sense the sense of happiness now!Holidays are here!!hehe..less tuition for this two months yet I hope to work hard during this hols.STPM is not easy at all.Even if you studied hard,it does not guarantee you an 'A'.Sounds scary huh?indeed it is..

And yes,Muet test reminds me about SPM.Consistenly looking at the clock,butterflies in the stomach,anxious for it to end.It also reminds me about all my friends while we were sitting for the exam.especially the add maths paper.It was hillarious and always will be in my mind.

Told ya I have nothing to blog already.That is why I am considering to shut this blog down as it has lost its purpose.Till then,love..

30/08/08(truly the best)

2008-09-01T19:11:00.000+08:00

Hey,it's me!lol..I'm finally free to blog..I was busy and of course lazy throughout my school days..hehe..NOw since I have holidays(last day of hols now..sigh),I am going to tell you what 2008's merdeka meant to me!

30/8/08

Finally after 1 year!1 year of worrying about fitting into the uniform!hehe..Finally..

*drum rolls!!

Hari Anugerah 2008 (to be exact 2006.2007&2008)

nervous and butterflies in my stomach before I get to march in front of His Royal Highness..

After the tabik,smiling,'junjung kasih tuanku'.

'Dari sekolah mana?'

'Patik dari ACS,Tuanku'

I thought I was doing fine..

Suddenly,'dari kampung mana?'

har..erm...kampung SEREMBAN!lol..Dato WOng was looking at me and repeating after me..'hmm..kampung seremban'..

Seriously,that was the hillarious part!I was blanked for few seconds!didnt realise what I answered also..lol

Okay!I will let the pics(and maybe a lil of me) do the talking now

BEST SCHOOL YOUTH UNIT

(consecutively for more than 4 years!)

beamingly proud =)

MOST OUTSTANDING YOUTH AWARD

RECEPIENTS FOR YR 2006/07/08

WITH PN.ONG

most committed and brave teacher I have ever met

And finally,

One of the best ever things that happened in my life!

I can still remember all the hardwork,time,sweats(yer),tears and efforts

we made throughout this 5 years.

Together we laughed,cried,argued and gossiping!=p

Our constant supports from each others,knowing that if one of us fell,

other 3 will be there to catch the 'sesat' one.

Being a rc member(active one) is not easy!

It is very demanding and exhausted!

But with you guys,

You've made it easier.

Can't believe this is the end now.

I will cherish the moments of us forever.

Nothing can change us.=)

from the bottom of xy's heart

*our very last time to wear rc uniforms!

What happened?

2008-08-24T13:59:00.000+08:00

I know life is never unfair.I don't need you to remind me about that.I just want a place to release it and so that I can let it be.If you do not want to listen,don't never ever bother to ask.I dont need you telling how naive I am.I will let it be but not for now.Don't try to think you are cute by giving me the blank look or with lol and hahaaha.I'm having a bad day today.If you are not helping,go away.I don't need u either.

The reason which I lost my temper today is because of the irresponsible helpers at the marathon today.They didn't record numbers of some of us and started to accuse us for running with the guys at the first place.What??Excuse me!I ran with the girls and not the guys at the first place.Secondly,we managed to overtake the guys and they started 5-10 minutes earlier

Not a single apologies from them.They just asked us to stand aside without explaining to us.We were asking politely.'Pak cik,kenapa?' or 'miss,what happened?'NOne of them replied us.It is better to talk with the walls at least there is some echo.After the 30th place,only they let us go in.

Of course I was angry and frustrated.I pushed myself to the extend already.God knows how I finished the 9km run.Dragging,focing and motivating myself to run le.Better spend time at home to finish my homeworks la.

*this happened 2 weeks before.Bad things start happen after that.One of my friend has lost
something valuable to her.Another has lost someone dearest to her.I had lost something too.
I don't want to make a big fuss about it and I just want my stuff back.Forgive me if I didn't tell.
I don't know how to start and how to explain.One of the reason is I could not accept other's
reactions when they heard about marathon.They said I am naive and life is unfair.An apology
from you may make our friendship back to usual.But I had lost my faith in you and will not tell
you how I am feeling inside anymore.

This is my life and I will know how to handle.Hope all the bad things will end by now.It is hard to
take it anymore.

I need a break

2008-08-20T05:14:00.000+08:00

Just because I did not tell you guys how much I dislike when you guys tease me face to face,it does not mean that I am fine with it.You may think it is funny,but my life is not ur joke.I might find it funny sometimes.only sometimes.

I dislike to see you face to face,not because I hate you or what,Just because i have to play tug-of-war with my innerself everytime I got home.It is not fun at all.Sometimes if the past won the game,it is very suffering.It is true that I had moved on with my own life.But sorry,I can't turn away in a sec and pretend like nothing happen before.The scar is still there and it is not fully healed yet.

The reason I make the first move is because I cherish our friendships.I believe that we are matured enough.Not because that I am desperate or whatever.If you think so,you are seriously wrong.I do find it awkward but what is the matter now?We only have one life.Who knows what might happen tomorow?I live by the motto 'Carpe Diem'..I guess this explains why I spoke to you that day.

I cannot deny that in my heart,there is always a place for you.and there is no expiry date for that.Just because we are just friends now,it does not mean that I will stop care for you and so on..You were someone special before and you will still be someone special but in a different way.

If you are reading this and you consider yourself as my friend,please stop saying all the nonsense between me and him anymore.It might be fun to see both of us speechless but remember,what goes around comes around.

I need a break.

5 things I hate about periods

2008-08-03T21:08:00.000+08:00

1.You will feel darn uncomfortable.

2.It is super unconvenient.

3.You will feel moody or moodless.

4.You will feel tired,pain,numb and etc..

5.You will have to battle with your inner mood swings.There's a high
possiblity to swing away your relationships with your loved ones and
friends.

*Don't believe?Try being a girl a day!=D
*p.s./Try to make a girl angry during those special days if you like some
'challenges'!

Tests

2008-08-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

It is me!!!lol..It has been a while since my last update..I had my exam last week.It was terrible,horrible end vegetable.I am not exaggerating.I thought it was a gone case cause it is just the first test!I felt I am dumb when I received my test papers.

Till Mr.Kwan came in,he talked to us about exams.He believe in exams as they are an evaluation of knowledges and understanding.I thought being in form 6,means that I have to study extra hard and be more hardworking.But it is proven that it does not help much if I dont know the technique of applying.

He told us that when he was in f6,he studied really hard for his physics paper yet he failed.He thought he was really 'bodoh'..We were laughing when he said that.Because the way he described is so cute.He told us it is because he does not the technique of applying at that time.He wants us not only to study hard,but to do more exercises.It will be struggling at the first place.But as we struggle,we are also learning.

I find that this is a kind of inspiration by f6 teachers.All of them are quite nice so far.And yes,I feel happy now.=)

cheer me up,will you?xD

2008-07-11T18:41:00.000+08:00

Why I have to learn things in a more difficult way this week?Firstly,I almost burnt Siva..He was helping me to light up the old-fashioned bunsen burner.It was so so so scary.Luckily,his response is fast enough and at the same time,I was fast enough to off the gas.Phew..Luckily,there is only a few hairs on his hand is burnt.I am really really guilty..Told ya I cannot work in lab.sad case..lol

I fell down..yes..If you are going to laugh,go ahead.lol..I know it sounds so lame to hear a soon-to-be-18 fell down.But believe me,it was really really an accident!xD

I was searching for a ribbon in my drawer this afternoon.As i was searching,i saw the big blue box you gave me.It brings back alot of memories.It just seems so hard to let go completely.I am seriously not good in bidding farewell and handling relationships.I am having a ___period with my friend.I do not know how to describe this.But it is sad.I know you did your best.I dont want to hurt you with my words.But I can't help it.I am sorry.

There are too many things running in my mind now.Stressed out?Nah..nope..At least not so fast.I am a tough girl!haha..But there is too much to handle for this week.I can't stand anymoreeee..Will you please cheer me up??=p

mixed feelings

2008-07-06T20:40:00.001+08:00

Congrats to the defending champion team!lol..I am so so so proud of you guys.We almost had heart attack this evening..I agree with what Pn.ong said.To be a champion is easy,but to maintain it,it is way more difficult than winning it.All the best to the IHL and marching team!

This has been another hectic week.I did not get to rest properly due to too many 'activities'..haha..The bbq with all the ACSians is awesome!i met the shortie shaun and sexy kim there=p..It has been ages since I last saw him.Let me recall,was it the spm bio test?lol..

I am really disappointed/tired.I did try my best to talk to you.Apparently,you think that it is a waste of time to talk to me or what?I am giving up now.honestly.Sorry for unable to be your 'in' friend.Those who can keep you bubbly and happy rather than being emo when you are with me.If you feel it is better to ignore me or whatsoever,it is okay.Just walk away.It will be fine.I am not going to tell you that I will be here when you need me anymore.It does not mean anything to you and me from nowonwards.

I learnt something about clubbing today.It is not just about dancing and drinking anymore,it is about xoxo too..but in a cheap way.
*I thought you are different,but ended up you are just the same as others.

Here in my class

2008-06-21T13:18:00.000+08:00

This the happiest week in KGV so far!It started with an orientation cum competition among classes of 6R.I still can recall the first day in class.It was so so so quiet.Everyone was doing their own work.There is no common topic among classmates.I didn't even know most of their names and didn't even talk to some of them till we have to come up with a performance.

Then we started to discuss,sing.laugh and dance together.After all the discussions,we finally decided to do a sketch and choir. It wasn't easy to synchronize everything from the singing till the movements.But the process is fun and this is the time we get to know each other better.

It is all worth it when we got the 1st place!!Every Iskandarians was jumping and cheering around.This reminds me about Setians.The semangat class..xD

My dream of becoming a chemist or working in a laboratory has officially vanished.I do not know how to use a new pipette sucker.(It is only because we were using the old one last week.=p)I tried so hard to compress the air out,squeezed the sucker with all my strength..(memalukannya)My lab partner.methyl mandy and I decided not to work in the laboratory in the future.We will get all inaccurate results.lol..I accidentally stained mandy's shirt with methyl orange.(so much for not wearing a lab coat la) Sorry girl..xD

quick updates!

2008-06-15T12:16:00.000+08:00

ohh...It has been a busy week.flooded by homeworks mainly from 'siew tien jie'..We have to stand during her class if we did not finish our Maths homeworks..Well,for your information,I am not a primary student.xD..

And and..I wanna wish all the june ~~giants~~babies happy birhtday!
May all your wishes come true!Love you..

Signing off,
Busy girl!xD

holidays no more!

2008-06-07T13:26:00.000+08:00

Time flies.My two weeks of holidays has come to an end.It is so fast that I cannot finish all my homeworks ~~as usual~~Well,I learnt some lessons throughout this hols.I have to be focus on my life and set my priorities right.Jon chatted with me that day.He told me that when the tough get going,I have to be tougher.He asked me not to remember this,but practice it.I know I can't afford to study last minutes anymore.Yea..I'll practice it.No worries.

Many things happened during this 2 weeks.There's something wrong with my phone and apparently I lost all of the numbers that I saved in my phone.So sorry if I ever ask who are you,dont be mad please!haha..

I watched superheroes and Kungfu panda in this 2 weeks.I have decided that I might have some kinda wushu power in myself too.So this explained why I jumped ~~climbed~~ through my house gate at 2 am in the morning.xD

And someone commented that I look very positive and bright.It seems that nothing can bother me.I was laughing when i read this.I wonder whether the person knows me well enough.But,I truly appreciate this comment as this is the best thing I have ever heard since long ago despite ~~38,loud and crazy~~.Everything bothers me now.lol..The comment he gave sounds like the old me!The young and naive me!(Hey,mind you!I'm still young and naive okay?hehe.Hmm,maybe not that young and naive la)

I'll continue to be the old me and nothing can bother me anymore.=)

It's time to change

2008-06-01T12:00:00.000+08:00

It has been a hectic week!too many tuitions are killing me softly..
Why am I only busy during the weekends?been hanging out with friends from fri till sun!and there is still alot of homeworks waiting for me..gonna do it later~(hope so!haha)

It has been an exciting and adventurous too~For further information,you can read in mandy's blog where she blogged about how we get lost while in the quest to search for the dearest girl's house.We almost went all the way to Jelebu!lol..Hey,i'm not a good map reader but on the other side,girl,you are not good in drawing map too!=p..But i still lap u..cheers~

There was a yumchar session yesterday..It is nice to see all the faces after so long.I still miss 5S and school..Miss disturbing my friends and making lots of noises around.There is nothing like you guys.You guys can always make me giggle like a smalll kid and laugh like a mad fella.Everyone is changing.Becoming prettier and hotter!lol..But will you guys or even myself will still be the same as in we are still best friends forever and we can still talk like there's no tommorow?Or we will be drifting apart day by day and eventually become strangers.I hope we can still keep in touch no matter what happens.Hey,I still wanna hang out with you guys even when we are in our fifties.=p

To you who are reading my blog now,I'm going to change this to a personal blog if you ever ask what's the reason I'm changing this and that anymore..haha..Congrats on getting yourself a new gf by the way..=p

My will

2008-05-27T17:19:00.000+08:00

All of us know life is fragile.But do you really make it an effort to tell your loved ones how much they meant to you and how much you loved them.Earthquakes in Sze chuan taught me an important lesson.Makes me appreciate my family,friends and everything around me.
Who knows whether i am able to survive today?
Who knows whether i have the chance to feel the wind breeze and the sun tomorrow?It's not up to me to decide.The final decision is made by the Big guy.
Life is too short to be sad.Life is too short to be fussy.Why make your life miserable?Lets have fun and live like there's no tomorrow!It's now or never.
Tell your loved ones how much they meant to you.3 words are more than enough.
If this is the last day for me,I hope you guys know how much each of you meant to me.I'll remember every moment we shared,every jokes we laughed together,every hugs you gave me.I hope everytime you hear my name,it brings back lots of memories to you.Be it a sweet,bitter or funny one,as long as you still remember me.I love you and I really do.

怎么会开始对你有了感觉?

2008-05-26T13:46:00.000+08:00

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又生怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决没准备跨越爱的界限
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退被爱包围谁犯规都狼狈
谁能解围让一切完美
这暧昧 ,
尽管唯美把爱放心里面

这首歌启发了我对爱情及友情的看法。

你是否曾经也对你的死党有了那么一点点的感觉,明知道你们俩已深陷朋友与恋人之间的危险,你却还拿不定主意,深怕会失去一个让你高兴的时候,陪你玩转整个世界的人,在你伤心难过的时候,把他那宽厚的肩膀借给你。

然而，一旦跨过了那一条处在爱情与友情之间的边缘，你知道一切将会改变。如果你是我，你会冒这一个险吗？

kl or singapore?

2008-05-26T13:12:00.000+08:00

First day of the school holidays!woots~i'm so excited with my hols..cause i have the chance to go shopping in kl or go singapore with my bfs!(don't be jealous..xD)

I'm still deciding which one to go..I really wanted to go shopping..Because I don't have enough clothes,bags,shoes and etc..lol.Guess girls are never satisfied with their stuff..But I wanna visit Singapore too while my passport is still valid..decisions are hard to make!

friends?

2008-05-23T19:44:00.000+08:00

Out of sudden,I thought about a friend of mine.He is my so-close-yet-so far-friend.We used to ~~talk~~ chat alot through mobile phones.Used to argue and tease each other through mobile phones..No doubt mobile phones are a tool of communication nowadays.From strangers to good friends within a year,we hardly talk face to face.Funny isn't it?Now we talk less and less due to studies..okay..I'm getting more random now..lol..To you who are sitting for your A-level's sem term exam,all the best to you.Hope you can be a successful doctor in the future.

There is another friend of mine.I don't know what's wrong with him.I'm trying my best to look out for him.But he..(I dont know whether he is ignoring me or what). He is one of the guy that I can open up and just be myself when I'm with him.Out of sudden,he just walk away.If you are reading this,what's going wrong?I remembered that you told me not to worry..you are here to listen to my problems. I just wanna let you know that I'll always be there for you.If this is your choice,I'm fine with it.Stay happy.

p.s:you might wonder why I'm blogging only about my guy friends..This
is because I'm so satisfied with my girl friends and I do keep in touch
with them!!hehe..

woots~holidays!

2008-05-23T08:03:00.000+08:00

Having holidays after only 2 weeks in school?this is lame..xD..but it is better than nothing..Today i skipped school and i'm going back to ACS!lol..Lunch with pn.fong perhaps?

I think I finally got used to waking up at 6 am..It is very pathetic to wake up at 6am on this self-declared holiday of mine!!I'm going to go crazy if I wake up at 6 am everyday during my hols..lol

To Ze Hao and Jia Wen who are accepted into the matriculation,all the best in your future undertakings..Two individuals with entire different personalities yet fun to be with in this short period,continue to shine on ya!

2008-05-19T19:22:00.000+08:00

The rules are:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player than tags 5 people and posts their names, than goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they done got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

What was I doing 10 years ago (1998)?
1. was an innocent standard 2 student.
2. was living with my nanny.
3. was atiqah's best friend.
4. was forced to participate in a story-telling competition.(It was horrible!
lol)
5. was car pooling with jj

5 things on my to-do list today.
1. do my pa essay and draw a bar chart.
2. go shopping for food!
3. Enjoy this PUBLIC HOLIDAY!lol
4. Rest well.
5. Reply someone.

5 Snacks I enjoy
1. Twisties
2. chocolate!
3. Popcorn
4. Candies
5. Papa beard

5 Things I would do if I were a billionaire
1. Travel around the world!
2. Donate to the RC,UNICEF and etc and work with them
3. Buy a bungalow with a swimming pool,basketball court,bowling alley,
pool table,tennis court..(I'll learn how to play those sports everyday!
lol)
4. Give my parents and relatives a sum of money.
5. Invest on real estates or open a company!muahahahah..

5 of my bad habits
1. always procastinate
2. Take cleanliness too seriously.
3. Clumsy
4. Loud..(Hey..i'm gifted k?xD)
5. Talkative

5 places I have lived
1. Korea
2. Seremban
3. Kulai,Johor
4. Sitiawan,Perak
5. Batu pahat

5 people I tag :
1. jess!
2. tuckie!
3. ah ying!
4. joyceeee!
5.ah ni!

First week of f6!

2008-05-16T17:56:00.000+08:00

Many will ask the sixth formers,how is form 6?Seriously,it is okay!Maybe this is just the first week of school..I'm now an ~~Setians~~ Iskandarians..My class has only 3 boys on the third day.A chinese,malay and an indian..pathetic huh?lol..today there is a new boy joining in..The malay planned to change to art stream while the indian boy planned to change school..so there will be 2 boys left..This happened in other class too..Majority guys are taking physics,so now Abu bakar may consider as the noisiest class in 6R.

Acsians and Georgians are the most talkative and sporting students in almost every class..Other students are more quiet and shy if compare to us!lol..My class can be also consider as the noisiest class as Mandy,Mei chern,Carmen,and of course me are there..I'm sitting with ah fu now..I told her that she might influence me to be as hardworking and quiet as her..Whereas,I'lll influence her to sleep in the class and talk alot..Today is just the second day.She is already talking to mandy while I'm sitting in the corner reading Reader's Digest..hehe..so fast huh?

It's sad to say that i feel sleep every night at 10++..How pathetic it is?I can't catch american idol and american next top model already..I really wanna David Cook to win!lol..

Oh yeah!There is a hot guy in 6R..lol..The one and only..But sad to say that he is transferring to other school..(this is kinda random)..lol..Anyway,this is only the first week of school..Have to work hard and be more hardworking!Take care guys!love!

i've been tagged!

2008-05-12T17:02:00.000+08:00

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions,then tag 8 people in your list,list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. who is your all time inspiration?
believe me or not,myself!lol..i'll do everything if i'm in the mood..

2.which do you prefer? school or college?
seriously school..no need to worry alot..plus i really like everything in
my high school..the teachers,5 setians,rc and all..

3.Do you believe in forever love?
Seriously nope in dating..but i do believe in forever love between
God,family and friends.lol

4. Where is the place that you want to go to the most?
I wanna travel around the world.But i need alot of money to do so!Any
sponsors?xD..For time being,i wanna go back to korea to visit my oma.
And not forgetting japan and bangkok!

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
I'm not a greedy person..can give me more dreams?xD..i hope everyone
around me will always be happy!

6. What is the first thing you do in the morning, after you've woke up
from sleep?
Search for food!lol

7.What would you do when someone upset you?
Have a nice sleep!once im awake,ill forget about everything he/ she did

8.If you win 1 million, what would you do?
1 million?woah!I'll put in half of the money into the bank or invest it.I'll
donate part of the money to the people who are affected by the silent
tsunami..I'll buy car and houses for my family and so on..(Why never
give me 1 million?I already finish planning la!lol)

9.If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I hope i will..lol..I'll give him hints and wait for him to make the first
move.I hope you are reading this and faster make your first move
le..lol

10.list out 3 good points to the person who tagged you.
Ah ni- Smart!
- Cute
- Friendly

Jessie - Sizzling Hot!hehe
- sweet
- sexy dancer!=p

11.What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
ohh..this is easy!i dont require much la..lol..He has to be smart,speaks
better english than me,taller than me(i'm already short le..how can my
bf is shorter than me),having the same religion,no need to be darn
hot..He just need to look okay..lol..be loyal!love me!always be there for
me..loving,passionate,caring,sweet,think maturely(I dont want my bf
to act like a kiddo xD),sporting,plays musical instrument or sings
to me!Has a sense of humour and responsible.Don't set a list of rules
and regulations for me..Be honest with me,doesnt mind me for being
the real me and able to make me smile and turns my gloomy day into
a sunny day!(woah..sounds impossible rite?i know..but it's nice to
imagine stuff..xD)

12.What do you hate the most?
I hate liars and pretenders!I hate crimes!I hate when i cant seem to
move on with my own life.I hate selfish people..I seriously hate people
who blame when it is not my fault!Other than that,i'm a
loving person!lol

13. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
I would like them to be honest with me..Thats what true friends
are..Plus I'm not perfect and i wish to be a better person!

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
God,family and friends..I'll never trade them for anything..

15. Describe yourself. 3 pros and 3 cons.
Pros - optimistic
- Friendly
- Caring

Cons - LAzy xD
- Used to take things too seriously
- like to irritate my friends..lol

16. Favourite quote?
I will aim as high as I can!For if I fail,at least I can reach the
CLOUDS!=) & Just do your best and God will do the rest!

17. What will you be doing once you connected to the net?
Msn-chatting,check my email,friendster,facebook!

18.Will you still keep in touch with long distance-friends after years?
Yea..always!

19. do you think that u're someone who get along well with your friends?
I guess yea..If not,I will like to be the someone who always irritates
them!lol

19. What makes you different?
My personality of course!lol

20. What would be found in YOUR refrigerator?
Chocolates from Nz.Chewing gums.Soft Drinks.Ice Cream!lol

I tag
-My sis (nothing to do at home la)hehe..
-summie!update ur blog la!
-my dino!i'm helping you to spend your time le!
-nana!time to relax!lol..
-aijeen!Purposely wanna waste your time!hehe

banners

2008-05-05T17:28:00.000+08:00

In conjuction with a BLOOD donation this sat,(sounds like a sppech.xD),us VADS have to paint 2 banners in order to save cost..lmao..bt we are on a tight budget..

Anyway,we started to ~~chat~~ draw and draw till the colourman reach the hq..i wonder how can a person teach a bunch of kindergarden childrens when he cant even talk alot due to his injuries.lol

It's seriously tired to wake up early in the morning and to draw the banners and ~~gossiping~~ chatting all the way..so man kwan and I decided not to bring the colours,cloth and brushes back home..It's darn heavy le..so we decided to hide it in the hq and to collect them after 2 weeks i guess..XD

cute girl with our banners

our watercolours and brushes..not obvious right?lol

Gonna end this post with a pair of sexy legs..i wish i have nice legs like her too..=)

orang besi

2008-05-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

This post is for me to improve my karat bm!lol..
Bang sum yang hansum&goblok ni suruh i meet dia kat mph..tibe-tibe,cakap digi pulak..saya tengok kiri,kanan,atas,bawah pun tak nampak gorilla ni...i mean org hansum ni,,rupa-rupa,dia cakap TGv..TGv..misleading betul!lol..

Tengok rupa bang sum ni bawah..seducing-nya..banyak laki-laki di old town kopitiam dah jatuh cinta dgn bang sum ni yang pandai pose ni!

Rupa I yang tak tahan dgn bang sum..

kononnya jealous la I!

Buntut bang sum sgn I..mana-mana kak ni pun besar daripada I..=p

Saya dgn Avin sudah lost kat arcade..kawan kami yg chun dah hilang dlm tandas!(feel guilty?)hehe

Gadis ni dgn bfnya yg baru-angkasawan!jgn main-main..

Kat Giordano.

Gadis yg chun dari ACS..=)

shitty feeling

2008-04-30T11:57:00.000+08:00

I hate myself

-for not being tough enough.
-for not being independent enough
-for not being mature enough
-for taking things for granted
-cannot let things fo easily
-for not revealing my true opinions
-afraid of hurting others,bt ended up hurting myself
-for being soft-hearted
-for following my heart instead of thinking with my brain
-for not being rational enough
-for taking things too seriously.should I just take things easily?
-for 'mm seh tak' everything in my life.not brave enough to walk out of
my comfort zone
-for feeling shitty right now.

Finally after 5 years...

2008-04-29T12:41:00.000+08:00

Finally after 5 years,having you to accompany me through every obstacles and every success,it's time to bid farewell.I really appreciate the time I spent with you as I never spent so much time on taking care of others.It's hard for me to let you go.But I got to move on with a new life.I will always miss you.

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Liars,back off!

2008-04-28T09:35:00.000+08:00

You can do whatever you want,but never ever cheat on me!i seriously hate liars.I dislike people who lied to me..

Hey,come on..I'm 18 this year..not 8 years old..can you please look at who you are trying to fool!you are the biggest mistake i made in my entire life.

Of course,I'll learn to forgive and forget..only He will decides whats ur punishment..

I'm officially engaged!

2008-04-08T11:51:00.000+08:00

Yea..I'm officially engaged to my studies for 2 years.If I'm really going to form 6,then I should be committed and pay alot of attention to my studies.I hope I will not think abt involving in anything else as I will have five fiances.They will be companions for this 2 years..and this is the time to get to know them well.

Exhausted yet Happy Day!!

2008-03-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

Today,i was supposed to meet my daughter,miss piggy at her grandma's hse at 9.15am..as expected,i reached ealier..(early by few minutes actually)..i pressed her door bell but ended up her aunt told me tht she was nt there..i was like....kena ffk?lol..

I didn't even bring my phone along..lol..now only i realised i cant live without my phone..i even forgot to bring my sis's cert to certify..i was searching foe shilings in my purse..ended up calling my sis with my one and only 1o cents..oh gosh..i even went to a shop to change shilings with an uncle..guess i frightened him a lil..

Ended up,miss piggy was sleeping just now..phew..i knew tht girl wouldnt be so mean to me!!lol..we walked to sch after finished photostat all our certs..we were in the sch till .......we chatted with ms.choo,ms.lee,pn.ong and mr.thillai.

After our lunch,we went to 'explore' sban town..we went to eat our lunch-mc's aunty's clinic-jati-yamaha-mc's place-opposite of pasar..thats the reason my legs are aching now..lol

We ended up laughing like two mad fellows while walking back from the pasar!it reminds me of the sweet moments we had in school..laughing and joking everyday..i miss the moments..

Everyone seems to plan for their future now.I afraid tht there will be a huge gap between me and my dearies..I'll try my best to keep in touch with them as they meant alot to me..To all sweetie pies out there,hope u guys will achieve your dreams and dont ever ever forget abt me!!hehe..heart u girls~

xoxo
signing off

happy chinese new year!

2008-02-11T13:26:00.000+08:00

2008,i started this year with a list of new year resolutions..by the end of this year,i hope i will achieve all my resolutions..hehe

by the way,i had a jolly new year this year!darn superb, fun and yummy!it is indescridable so i will let the pics do the talking..=)

my 30th night,

we had our own celup..yum yum

pineapple rice by my aunty

First day of cny,

yummy brocolli!

veges for lunch!

tasty 'hui diao jiu' chicken

after our lunch,we decided to 'exercise'!

we 'swam' for few hours XD

As the adults are swimming,the kids started to watch the icon of this year...JERRY!

even my uncle watched with his grandson..

On the 2nd day of cny,we went batu pahat to visit my aunty and uncle.

DINNER TIME!

gosh!it's so yummy..my cny is abt reunion,angpaus,eating,eating &eating!=)

updates!

2008-01-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

well,currently i'm doing nothing at home..bt that is not an easy task tho..
i can remember what time is my favourite series showing..then i'll stick to the tv!lol..i promise to change..but,erm..give me more timela!haha..tomorrow i'll be going to the state library?to study?well,i doubt that!

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this is my current addiction!

Hold on, little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up, little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's Through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on Baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside, I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up, Who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside, I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
Why be alone
When we can be together, baby
You can make my life worthwhile
I can make you start to smile
When it's Through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on Baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside, I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside, I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
Just to be the next to be with you

*i heard it from cornetto love perhaps 2!that's a guy singing this song to
his gf..and it is like so romantic..it is hard to find a guy like that nowadays huh?lol

having a real bad day..

2008-01-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

can someone lend me their shoulders?

can someone just stop by to listen to me?

can someone actually care?

i hope there's a rainbow after all the storms..